So, I made the first visit up to New Jersey. My soon to be new home state. The first night was pretty intense. I arrived around 9:30 pm, and could see the whole city lit up. It was very overwhelming pulling in to the gate on the plane, knowing that this was going to be my new home. Things felt better when Shane picked me up, seeing him just reassured everything for me and I knew it was going to be great. But making the drive to his apartment, with all of the traffic and all of the noise just shook me. I had a pretty big breakdown when we got to his place, called Daniel crying, he calmed me down and made me feel a little better. He said "yes it's different, it's not bad, just different." It helped. After that, just being able to spend all that time with Shane just really made everything worth it. The thought of getting to do that all the time makes me so happy I can hardly stand it! I wanted to get out and explore a little on Friday while he was working, but it rained pretty much all day. Saturday we went into Hoboken and had dinner and walked around. I really loved it there, I would love to live there one day. I thought that when I move up in December, I would be moving in with him where he is now, but come to find out, they don't allow pets. Of course, my puppies are my life and so that will not work for me. I have been looking for a different place, and actually already found one today that I love. I hope everything goes well and I can secure it in the next few days. I think it will be a lot better anyway, I wasn't really looking forward to having to live with him and his friend and fiance. That's a bit much for me and my pups. So I'm glad it will just be the two of us and the pups.
I'm not feeling scared about going anymore. I am really glad I got to go up there this past weekend. Being with him just feels so right and I know this is what I am supposed to do and where I am supposed to be. I think I will adjust very easily to living there, as I already began to this weekend. I look forward to going back in a month, having my car and being able to really explore the new city. As sad as I am to be leaving, my happiness for going overrides that.
Matthew- I wish you could see it. You would love it up there. I feel like you should have lived in a big city, living your crazy and exciting life. It makes me sad that you never got to experience something like that. In a way, I am doing this because you never got to. It's kind of like through me, you can experience it too. You are on my mind, as always.
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