Goodbye My Lover

I will always love you, no matter how hard you to tried to shut me out. I know it's not your fault. M&M

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

lies

I feel like I'm starting to lose my faith in people. When I thought you taught me about honesty, I have learned you taught me about secrecy and how to lie. I'm finding it very hard to want to trust someone again at the fear they will lie to me like you did. How am I supposed to know what's the truth? I just want to push everyone away right now. I'm not ready to open up. I feel too betrayed.

Fearless

Well, it's been a month since I last wrote anything. Matthew, you know that doesn't mean I think about you any less or feel heartbroken any less. I guess I'm just trying to get things back on track. I finally feel like I'm making good progress in this situation. I'm enjoying my life around me. I love having all of my friends back, and getting even closer to Mimi. It makes me really happy that she and Angela have become good friends too. I have an amazing family/puppies, awesome friends, a perfect job, and a house that I love. With all the heartache I've had to endure, I now realize just how lucky I really am. What we had was perfect and beautiful. I will forever love you and cannot wait until the day when I see you again. But I know I have to keep going on. I have to keep my head up and carry on. Just like Tupac taught me. I want you to know that I'm ok. I will continue to be ok. And most of all, that I love you. And that's the truth.